April 30, 2014

I can never get used to this.

Every time I log in my facebook, I would always visit your wall. Then, cry and cry like I always do. I try not to but I can't. This always happens at home when I am all by myself. I never try to do this in public because I cannot promise myself not to tears. I know this is not a good thing to do but thats the only way I can feel myself connected to you, Pru. I'm sorry I put your, I mean our text messages on private box in my phone, it's all gone now. I used an apps to make it as private conversation. When I uninstall it, it just disappear. I can't look for it anymore. And again, I did something stupid.
I miss you Pru. I still cannot believe you're not here with everyone, with us, with me. I miss calling you. I miss talking to you. I miss your presence. I miss your positive vibes the most.

April 28, 2014

three hundred seconds conversation

Last night was a tough night. Ann and I went working as a part time at a hotel as a banquet server. We were so lucky because last night function was a jungle theme dinner. Interesting, right? The whole ballroom was covered with tree branches, dead leaves were all over the ground and it was pretty dark. They used led light and some other lights to make the surrounding looks a lot like a jungle at night. Every guest were dressed up according it's theme. 
We were told by the manager that tonight we will not be paid because this is our first time and take it as our training session. Training session means we will be given partner to guide us while serving a table. But our partner will do most the important works and we will learn all the things we must know by observing them. I had a little experience before working part time as a caterer during raya so I guess I know some of the basics. Tbh guys, I don't really work for the money, but I'm dying for those experience. Serving banquet in a five stars hotel, this should be in my bucketlist. It was exhausting because everything must be done in a minute. Running in our half-inch-heels for hours was killing my feet. I think almost died when my partner ask me to get clean plates from the kitchen when this girl accidentally stepped on my foot with her heels on. Thank God I didn't shout, it would have been embarrassing.
Before we started our training, I met this guy. Idk if he is a friend or just someone I knew. We bumped into each other at the hallway. He was working there too. So we talk for a moment. He was cute. And our conversation made me smile the whole time and I think the guests in my table caught me smiling and freaked out a little. I don't know why but I hope will meet again in the future. I just hope we will.
Before the night ends, our manager told us we can go home at eleven. Finally we can go home earlier. While waiting for our car, Ann and I had little talk. I really miss talking with Ann. We always have something common on each other. I like that cos that's what makes me comfy talking to her. It feels calm and lighter after had those little talks with her. I'm just glad she's here. Just glad. 

April 26, 2014

Pre University Graduation.

Everyone has been waiting for this day. The day we all have been worth waiting for, Graduation Day. Thank God we all have passed our STPM with flying colors. I want to thank everyone who had been there for me till my final exam. The teachers had been working so hard on us although we throw some harsh comments on them or made lots of arguments with them on some cases. Sorry for being so stubborn but thanks a million for always pushing us till we reach the top. My amazing family too did a great job for me, they were always there giving support, comfort and advises, especially my brothers and sister. My dearest friends, especially my girls(sometimes I refer them as soriots), tbh I can never achieve my goal for STPM without you girls. They did so many amazing things for me and I will never forget that. You girls are my most effective motivations, greatest supporters, happy pills and not to forget my best alarm clocks when I get my head on the table during classes. My Pre-U companions too, you guys has been rocking the Pre U class of '12/13. We just made a great moment with the teachers and school. And last but not least, thank you God the great for always giving the strength to against everything that brings me down. I never stop myself from loving and believing in You.
This last one and half year has been such an incredible moment for me. Now those precious moment has become an unforgettable memories. I had experience the most bitter and sweet side of myself and what can I say now? I guess the found the real me. I never been this confident before. Life is getting better and better each year. Thank you dear self for not giving up till now.
  



April 17, 2014

six birthday candles for two kids

We had a small party at my brother's new house. Ciara and Cyrus was celebrating their birthdays. Ciara is finally 4 years old and Cyrus is turning to 2 years old. My babies are all growing happily. The other two little kids are my nephews, Dave and Sneijder. Yes, their named them after his favourite football player. We had a great time that night.