November 22, 2013
My late best friend's birthday today.
I wrote about her few weeks ago.
This entry is dedicated to you Pru.
I love you so much.
Everyone is missing you.
And we will always be.
Every moments we share,
Will always be with me till the day we meet again.
I love you Pru.
And happy 19th birthday.
November 21, 2013
"Can I call you?"
November 19, 2013
Bowling on my birthday eve.
I told my mum that I want to play bowling on my birthday. She said "We'll see". So, on Saturday night, brother bear asked us to get ready for bowling. It really made me happy. I had my first bowling that night and not to forget, my first strike and I won, I beat everyone. I got the highest score. It was a great night. Thanks to everyone. Aw I love my family so much.
Birthday wish on 00:22 am.
He wished me. That asshole, I don't just want your wish, I want you to tell me truth. The reason why you lied. I think you already knew that I'm trying to get rid of you right? I have been ignoring you since the moment I knew you were not being honest to me. A friend wouldn't do that for no reason(s). But I'm quite happy you remembered. Just happy.
A complete best friends' birthday wishes.
Homie, you did it! You did not forgotten my birthday this year. Last year was such a joke. You forgot the whole thing even if I texted you on that day. I was really upset that day. But it doesn't even matter at all now. I had the best gift ever in my life with my best friends. I love you munyits.
"I just wanna say that I had the biggest crush on you before my current girlfriend."I thought you had forgotten my birthday. You asked me my birthday in early February. It's okay for me to recall everything back now. I don't feel hurt or pity about myself anymore. I'm not a clueless bastard anymore. Because that long birthday wish from you had answered to every questions that been stuck in my head for a long time. I'm glad you told me. I really am. You saved me.
That night I kept on thinking.
What would I do after this?
What should I feel?
I know I should be feeling happy but that won't last forever.
Maybe I should just stay feeling nothing
but that's such a waste cos things like this don't usually happen on me.
Or maybe I should be feeling sad because
I know this thing will be over and people will forget you.
But I don't want to be sad
I have been feeling sad too long now
I'm tired of it
I hate it
It never helps
I told myself that it's time to move on
How to move on?
"Once you let go of everything"
The question is, have I let go of myself?
November 16, 2013
November 10, 2013
I have a friend
who made me thought
that I am important to him
a thought that
I stupidly believe it is true
and of course
with a thought of that
I treat him nicely
help him in school work
show him how to do his assignment
listen to all his whining
worst part of all
having faith on him that
he'd change for better
pathetic dumb ass heartless fucking liar
you made everything wrong
you lied to me